done.
Done -(infinitive.) Performed; executed; finished; Us.
09/03/11 01:29 am
the decision is mutual, we both want a ceasefire. we fought over a small thing but uncontrollably, it grew big. all eventuated through text messaging which i think worsen everything. the tragic end happened simultaneously with their finals and our midterms. i hope he did well but for me, i ain’t that confident about the coming results.
basically, “we’re done” for me means “we” do not exist already. it’s sad to think that the one you kept on fighting for just easily gave you up. i don’t want to blame but i just cant help myself in releasing my sentiments. i am also regretful about my impulsive steps that added fuel to the fire. well, it had already passed and i got nothing to do about it anymore. instead of crying in the corner and being bitter, i just want to focus on my studies now. idk but i somehow feel unsecured about my feu scholarship. i already warned my parents not to expect. nevertheless, i still got owwa’s. i must not have a grade lower than 80. atleast the pressure is lesser than aiming for a grade higher than 1.50 GWA.
i want our break-up to result in better “us”, i mean better him without me and better me without him .So if one day, maybe & hopefully, when our paths crossed once again, we’re both at our best, ready and more knowledgeable in managing relationships, if not romantic, atleast a friendly and harmonious one. i hope i have shared great experiences with him because surely, he left me good ones. though there is still anger and pain in my heart, whenever i think of him i am still grateful. It blithers my being to be given a part in his life that only few people are able to touch.
This may seem a farewell post on the blog that has been the window of our ups and downs but this generally signals our courage to move on and take risks. I believe we were a happy couple but we can’t continue on this relationship if we can’t handle each other’s weaknesses. I got no plans of deleting this blog. The happy memories kept in it will surely delight my heart in the future. Instead, i just want to close our book but not throw it all away. I’ll consider renaming and redressing this blog but the old posts will still remain. I’ll comeback when i’m fully ready to face this life without him. it may take a while but i’m sure it’ll come. tears are now falling as i end this note. I love you Babe. I love you Jerwin. thank you and i’m so sorry. forever.
