adios!

sad to say, all things got endings.

he can’t fight no more. i can’t force him either and i never won’t. if it’s his decision so be it. all people leave. all of them for everything’s ephemeral in this world. it hurts a lot and tears can’t withdraw the pain. though i may not love him much, i’ve given a part of myself too. now that he’s gone, i’m incomplete once again. fortunately, there’s always one guy who would never leave me neither leave you, it’s Him, our God :) maybe, it’s just His way of saving me from the wrong guy again or if not, it’s just a test of time for destiny to do it’s job.

8.22 pm : i received his reply at my question what boggles his mind, it goes like this:
” All about you, kasi pansin ko lagi ka nlang galit sakin eh at ako ang dahilan. i just want to make you smile but i can’t and i hate that. ur not happy with me anymore cause i lack humor and you’re always mad at me. it hurts. i want to grow old with you but i think it’s not gonna happen =……( and now, i’m saying all of these because i want us to be friends nlng ^^ that’s all. i don’t want to have an enemy so i think its goodbye mahal na <3 and hello my friend ‘kristine’. Thank you for loving me and opening my heart. Thank you. ‘i love you’ as a friend mmwah! <//3”

at first, i was stoned. i told him to STFU. idk what to feel. but as i construct my text messages to him, tears just ran down my face. i don’t understand why he is hurt. we don’t fight/quarrel much and he always makes me happy. he just don’t know. :( goodmorning texts that lights up my day, goodnight texts that makes me feel safe :(((( why is it everytime i decided to devote all my attention to a person even though i hurt some people or risk my relationship with others just for them, they leave me?? i hate goodbyes. people always leave. they leave me alone. leave me behind. leave me broken. but i know, it’s just the bitter truth about life, ephemeral. 

i got no plans of deleting this account. i put sooo much effort on this :) and i know the memories stored in it will never fail to give me smiles someday, someday. someday. so adios followers!! Thank you for accompanying me on my journey with him. take care and God bless!  </3