it’s happily complicated.

misunderstandings are inevitable in relationships.

We got ups and downs but he can’t handle the latter successfully. he said he got a weak heart especially because it’s his first time to fall in love. he left me. but after i guess the whole night, he asked me return. i was so depressed because i value him so much already but the fact that he can’t fight for me or even bothered to solve the problem first before giving up lessened my feelings for him. idk if it really has been lessened or it just messed the whole thing up. we aren’t / weren’t officially together. we broke up due to some circumstances but we’re still harmonious. if i’m going to view it on a third-person perspective para kaming MU/nagliligawan ngayon.

last friday, 8th of July, he baked some bread for me. we talked for a while and settled things up. i saw so much sincerity. i can’t even look at his eyes directly because i was melting. i feel weak whenever i look at those teary pupils. Well, like most of the other girls, i value my pride. However, that spirit of guilt and so much regret softened my hard heart. i was actually an impatient and bossy person. i scold people especially when they’re late but to him, idk why but i’m fucking patient. of course i dislike his tardiness but that smile takes every anger away. i feel like i want to spend more happy times with him than bringing up his tardiness issue. Nevertheless, he promised to be punctual from now on. He also swore to be more open and to be more versatile in balancing his priorities :) like most other girls still, i gave him another chance.

currently, we’re working it out now. it’s fun and light. though we don’t mandate responsibility on one another, we’re happily contented. i want to establish a great friendship before anything else. yesterday, 15th of July, we went to SM Manila and spent some time together. well, we misunderstood each other for a while but it turned out to be great :) i had fun. until now, i’m smiling. well, it’s not that significant but his presence next to mine is already a complete day. he’s so cute and adorable but i want to know him more, dig deeper into that secured and dormant personality. i want to love him not because of his appearance but much greatly because of his heart. i got irritated to him most of the times because he don’t share much. “privacy” as he says but i hate it. i’m the type of girl who likes to listen. an eager inquirer that wants to know every detail. i like listening more than talking. i actually hate my voice but because of every girl’s nature, i can’t help but chat. i hope we’ll get to be more intimate.

optimistic and in love :)