Dear Apollo & Athena,

It’s been some time now since I and your dad became together. Unofficially, it has been six months already. Though it wasn’t formal, it felt like we broke up last night. There was no finalization but his messages yesterday justify we’re done.

The problem started when I took notice of his sensitivity. I think we clash because he acts more feminine than me. I just want him to change, be manly for me. But instead of putting some effort to make things work, he just let go. He said he doesn’t want to hurt me and ruin my life. I think he is going too far. I wasn’t hurt. I was just exhausted of understanding him and considering the fact that it’s his first time to fall in love that’s why he is so vulnerable. We were in fact very happy these past few days but that stupid bus thing and his big ego just messed things up. I can’t take the verity that for that small insignificant event, he is willing to lose everything. The more frustrating thing is, he wants to deal with this problem after their finals. Am I not that important to him so he’ll let things idle until he finishes this term? How about my feelings? I just don’t know why it seems so easy for him to throw it all away.

I haven’t been texting him since I received that “next time na lang natin pag-usapan, need to study eh. Need to concentrate” message.He likes to ‘concentrate’, so be it. I might just be a distraction. I am the lady so I won’t be the one to initiate. It is just upto him if he’ll fight and try to put things back in to place.